I'm just going to keep quiet from now on...

today was fun.
there wasn't any drama, and I didn't have any homework again!

I actually did a lot of thinking today.
and, I've decided that I need to be more quiet from now on.

A lot of people say that I don't talk enough,
but I think that I talk way too much.
and, half of the things that I say are mean or just plain stupid.

Youth Group tonight was better than it has ever been.
we talked about eating disorders.
not regular eating disorders, but spiritual eating disorders.

It helped me realize that I need to spend more time reading my bible and praying.
I don't devote enough of my time to the Lord.

we talked about the four different steps, or kinds of spiritual eating disorders.
here they are...

milk: where you thrive off of what you were taught when you were little and don't think that you need to know anymore, because you're saved and are already going to heaven.

exercise anorexia: where you go to church, but you don't pay enough attention, and spend a lot of time helping the church, but not going to the sermons and learning from them.

anorexia: where you go to church, you go to the sermons, but you pay little attention, because you think that you don't have to because you're already going to heaven.

bulimia: where you basically go to church, but pay little attention, and you push aside your devotional time, and don't read the bible, or pray much.

I think that the lesson had a big effect on me, because I realize that I do go to church at least 2 times a week, but I don't spend any time worshiping God outside of that.

well, I have to go to bed.
School tomorrow.
God Bless,

Shelby

air fares went up friday...

round trip to paris was a real good deal.
cheap...tempting and now...unavailable.
sounds like someone else I know.

today was okay.
it wasn't exactly good, or bad...

I've come to realize that no matter how much I like a person, that i'll never find the guts to tell them.
I had the chance to tell him twice today.
Two perfect moments...
But, something is stopping me.
I'm not exactly sure what it is, but I know that it's definitely there.
Maybe it's the fear of losing him as a friend...
or the fear of rejection...
or just the fact that he's older than me.
or maybe it's all 3.

I just don't know anymore.

tomorrow's always another day, I guess.

-Shelby